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| 12:28am 23/03/2006 |
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mood:  distressed
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Tybalt is going in for his surgery tomorrow. I tried to put it off, but I do need to let the vet go through with it. My poor little man! He isn’t going to be so much of a man anymore! T___T What should I call him from now on? My little thing? I gave him such a manly name and now his manberries? stuff is going to be gone! He’s going to have an identity crisis…
I hope he doesn’t hate me after this. ;___;
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| 04:03pm 26/02/2006 |
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mood:  guilty
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.__. I have a question for everyone...
Should I maybe have Tybalt fixed? He's begun to pee urinate on things in my room. e__e Like my poor shoes. Is it bad for me to want to fix him? e___e I mean, I wouldn't want my things manhood to be taken away from me.... but then again, I don't go potty on things.
Suggestions? x_x |
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| 10:06pm 13/01/2006 |
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mood:  creative
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Phew, I've been very busy lately. Semester break really shouldn't be so busy. x_x;
I've been visiting my family for a while. I sorry if anyone was looking for me and couldn't find me.
Mother sent me home with a goodie bag, so I get to disperse sweets.. n__n Ari-chan, do you want another pie? Oh, and Suguru, I'll have you know that my little sister is planning a wedding. I hope you're prepared to be a man and take responsibility for this.
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I finally have a new story I'm working on. n__n I was told that I could write this one myself because I've been "shelved" for long enough. So far it has to deal with one of Suguru's bandmates, Shindou-san. He and Yuki-san broke up, but I guess it's alright. They both have new lovers life-partners? bed buddies? boyfriends. It should be interesting. n_n |
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| Yay. |
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| 03:54pm 22/12/2005 |
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mood:  happy
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Oh, the past few weeks have been rather chaotic. I just finished with all of my finals and now I'm on semester break! Yay! n__n I've been hiding out in my room for the longest time to prepare and now that I'm done I'd like to do something. Does anyone want to celebrate with me and Tybalt? |
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| Healing |
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| 06:32pm 30/11/2005 |
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mood: happy
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Well, I'm feeling much better lately. Most of my boo-boos owies scrapes are looking much better. I look like I just fell down a hill, which I perfer to looking like I was pushed out of a moving car... which was driving over jagged rocks at the time. Suguru has busy lately, so Tybalt has been keeping me company..
Oh! I named the kitten Tybalt. I thought it fit because, after all, Tybalt is the Prince of Cats.
I love clever Shakespearean references. |
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| 02:46am 30/10/2005 |
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mood:  in agony
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Owwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
Well, I just limped walked in. The track meet was out of town, so that's part of the reason why I just got back. Our bus broke down on the way back home which really didn't help my new-found situation. Everything hurts. Everything. I think even my hair hurts, in fact, I'm sure of it. It hurts from the tips of my hair to the tips of my toes. Ow.
... I should probably explain. I had a little accident out on the track. When I say little, I mean that I didn't break anything or hurt any muscles; nothing serious like that. So I'll be able to continue to run for the season and such. I just hurt when I breathe hurt when I don't breathe Oh, God, it hurts to blink got banged up a bit. I tripped in the second lap of my last race. Now, when I say that I tripped, I mean that I stumbled and fell while running full speed on the track. Thankfully, I avoided getting hit by anyone's kleets. Skidding to a stop on the track makes me want to die isn't a nice feeling. I'm pretty sure that I'm scraped from my forehead on down. Oh, and the track-burn. Kind of like road-rash but with lots of tiny rocks stuck in your gaping wounds owies.
Oh, I'm so glad Suguru was asleep when I came home. He would have gotten upset because I look like I've been mauled. Or thrown out of a speeding car. Something like that.
Well, I'm kinda grumpy and very tired so I think I'll go hobble into bed.
Oh, God, it hurts, make it stop Night. |
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| Interesting week. |
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| 09:09pm 26/10/2005 |
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mood:  amused
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Something kind of funny happened to me today, I was recruited onto my school's newspaper staff. They gave me the little armband with 'PRESS' written on it and everything. Irony makes me chuckle.
I've been trying to come up with a name for the kitten over here, but I can't think of any! So distressing! T_T It needs a name! I can't just keep calling it "little one" and "cutie-buns". e__e;
Oh, and I have a meet on Saturday, so if anyone is looking for me, that's where I'll be. Wish me luck! n__n |
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| 12:57am 20/10/2005 |
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mood: distressed
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::Private::
Suguru has seemed down lately. .-. I don't want to talk to him myself (I've been kind of avoiding him ever since that weird dream e_e;), but I'm pretty sure that whatever has made him sad is Yuuji's fault. I think I may have a talk with him...
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n__n
There is the cutest little kitten over here at Suguru's! I looooooove kitties! And this one's decided that my face is it's personal pillow. n___n How adorable is that?! |
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| :O |
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| 12:16am 01/10/2005 |
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mood:  flustered
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I brought Ari-chan her batch of cookies tonight. n___n Her kitten is so cute! She took a picture of me snuggling with it, which is kind of embarassing.
::Private::
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Oh my. Umm. I don't really know what to do about this.. I think that I might feel a little better if I write it down.
I had a dream last night. A very, very odd dream. It was about me and.. Suguru. There were two parts to it and... well.. the first part wasn't as bad as the second, but it was still very, very bad. Very bad. e__e I mean.. porn-ish extreme sexual content. I was.. on bottom and... it was.. I guess it would be called nice and sweet but.. e__e it was still sex. The second part was much worse. I think I should go to a church and confess or something.. it was that bad. I was on top and.. Suguru was very.. demanding.. no, a better word would be aggressive.
I can't believe I thought of my best friend like that. I never have dreams like that!
.. I'm going to take another very cold shower. e__e; I feel dirty. |
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| 11:30pm 25/09/2005 |
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mood: cheerful
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Ok! The baking has begun! n____n Everyone should get a nice batch of their favorite cookies soon!
... .-. I think I'll help Suguru dye his eyebrows to match his hair while I bake... |
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| 12:31am 20/09/2005 |
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mood:  calm music: Dears - Gackt
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I've been rather bored lately. .-. I don't know exactly why, but it might have to do with Suguru being so busy. u__u We Haven't been able to do very much together since he is always doing things with Yuuji lately.
He did help me with something for work though, which was really fun. ♥
I wonder if Ari-chan would mind a visit? She has been busy with her new boyfriend for a while and I wouldn't like to interrupt or anything...
.-. Also, I've been in a kind of baking mood. Maybe I'll bake some cookies! Suguru, Ari-chan, what kind would you like? Oh, Suguru! n__n Tell me what kinds of cookies your bandmates like and I'll make some for them too! Oh, and Ari-chan, some for your boyfriend? What kind does he like?
n__n Now I feel like Betty Crocker... .-. without the skirt.... and the female.. ness. x_x; |
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| 10:16pm 08/09/2005 |
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mood: traumatized music: Arterial Fear - TMR
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Umm.. Well, I went in to have my physical the other day..
I knew it would be awkward, it always is but... it was very bad this time.
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Apparently, I've been molested. e__e; That's what Suguru said, and I believe him.
The doctor that did my physical was around my age and he was very.. touchy. e__e; I know that he's supposed to cup my testes make sure certain things are in working order but.. stroking is not part of that. Not part of that at all.
He even convinced me into letting him check my prostate. He said that it's better to start checking it early, and he is a doctor, afterall. So I let him. e_____e;
I really thought that you just bent over and they stick their finger in poke around for a moment. He had me up on the table with my legs spread and my knees pushed up to my chest. I don't think that's standard procedure. I'm glad I'm bendy, because that would have probably hurt. e___e; I didn't tell Suguru this, but he even asked me for my phone number! What was that about?!
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| Sigh. |
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| 12:18am 05/09/2005 |
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mood:  worried music: Ares - Gackt
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Well, Suguru has been home for a while now, so his manager hasn't had to stop by, except for that first time.
Yuuji has also been over lately. A lot. A really lot, actually. It's been.. awkward. I really don't enjoy Yuuji's company, and it's blatantly obvious that he doesn't like mine either. I think he's still bothering Suguru about me living with him. Maybe I'll just move out on my own. It would reduce some of the stress he is under. Then again, I don't trust that man with Suguru at all. Yuuji is very thoughtless when it comes to Suguru's feelings, and I don't....
I hate it when Suguru cries. And so far, the one thing that has caused him to is Yuuji.
Ugh, I feel like I'm just being nosey. I fear I'm turning into the proverbial old lady that lives next door and spies on everyone through their windows. u__u;
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Oh, I found out at track today that I have to go in for a physical tomorrow. It seems that I'm overdue for one. I just hope the doctor doesn't want to give me a shot. e___e; |
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| 09:51pm 22/08/2005 |
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mood:  confused music: Dears - Gackt
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Someone came looking for Suguru the other day. I didn't tell him where exactly Suguru was, but I did tell him that he was on vacation. Suguru, I think you may want to inform someone at work that you're still alive.
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The man turned out to be Suguru's manager, K-san. He's a very sexually appealing? nice looking? attractive? pretty? tall man. I've never talked to someone who was that much taller than me. o__o It was new. He kept looking at me oddly. I really thought I had something on my face for a moment, but his eyes weren't really on my face. They traveled alot. e___e; I don't know why he was doing that, but it made my tummy do weird little flip-flops. I wonder if I'm getting some kind of stomach bug... |
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| 10:52pm 14/08/2005 |
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mood:  crappy music: Rain - Gackt
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Oh goodness, well, I had an eventful evening the other night. Suguru offered me a glass of wine, and I had to wonder if he had ever had a martini before. He hadn't, which suprised me. He tends to like fancy drinks. I made us each one and put some of his gummy worms on the sides of our glasses. n___n He really liked it, but he ended up drinking it much, much too fast. e__e Which caused him to get tipsy. He then convinced me to do the same with my own drink. After that, the only thing I really remember is him saying that I'd be pretty in make-up. e____e;;; When we woke up the next morning, I was far, far away from pretty. I very much resembled a prostitute. Needless to say, it was quite a funny situation to wake up to.
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I now hold an even stronger resentment for Yuuji. I didn't think it would really be possible for that to happen, but it has. I want him to leave so very, very much. Since he arrived he has only shamelessly rubbed himself all over Suguru while completely ignoring me in the process. I do not appriciate this. He is trying to take my best friend away from me when he doesn't deserve to breathe within a thirty block radius of Suguru. I am not amused. |
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| 10:44pm 03/08/2005 |
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mood:  crushed music: TSUKI no UTA - Gackt
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I do not.. feel very well today. My stomach and my chest hurt a little. I think I may be coming down with a cold. Ah well, I'll just drink a nice, warm cup of tea and head off to bed. n__n That should help to clear this up.
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Sick. Right. I know I'm not sick, I'm just... depressed. Suguru and Yuuji have gotten back together. I worry for Suguru, the poor boy practically wears his heart on his sleeve when that man is involved. I don't blame Suguru for it though, Yuuji-san was is his first love. First loves are very important to you, not that I would really know. I'm worried. Very worried. I don't like Yuuji-san. I don't like how he showers Suguru with attention only when they're alone or when Suguru is around someone whom Yuuji-san sees as a threat to his "claim" on Suguru. I really hate how he just ignores Suguru or treats him with an air of indifference when someone else he is interested in is around. It isn't right, it isn't right at all. How could Yuuji-san do that if he honestly loved Suguru? If you love someone, you focus a very large amount of attention on them, and only them. You don't... You just don't play grab-ass with someone else infront of them. Friendly touches and affection are fine, but.. Yuuji-san and Jonathan-san are just ridiculous. If you're going to make out with someone, why not try doing it with the person you're supposedly in love with?
I don't think Yuuji likes me very much either, but for once, I don't care if someone likes me or not. I hope he despises me, at least then the feeling will be mutual. He's going to hurt Suguru again, I just know it. He hurt Suguru all the time before that one last thing that broke them up. That bastard mean person, he couldn't just leave Suguru alone.
But... Suguru doesn't seem so lonely anymore. All I want is for my friends to be happy. I've done a bang-up job so far, haven't I? I guess I really am just a useless hinderance.
I think I'll pack my things now. I'll check Suguru's address book before I leave though. I need to find that Tatsuha person. He and I need to have a talk. |
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| 01:54am 31/07/2005 |
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mood: gloomy music: Break Down, Build Up - Winds
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Suguru finally came home not that long ago, and I'm very happy about that. It's so good to be able to see him again. I felt really lonely without him here.
I think he may be getting back together with Yuuji though. That... makes me sad. I met Yuuji the other day and it seems that they've started to get .. close.. again. I may be moving out of Suguru's apartment soon. I'd rather leave before he has to ask me to go. I wouldn't want for him to feel awkward.
In other news, I actually feel the need to do physical harm to someone named Tatsuha. He scared Ari-chan and called her a whore.. Not only that but he decided to touch my Suguru without his permission. This cannot go without some kind of retribution. I'm just going to go and have a talk with the boy. Just a talk. I won't let such negative feelings force me to go against what I know is right. I'm not one to beat someone up. I'm usually on the receiving end of that. e__e;
Also, Ari-chan said she has a crush on me. I don't really know what to think of that. Besides, I think she was kidding anyway. |
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| 02:32am 25/07/2005 |
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mood: gloomy music: Fragrance - Gackt
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I had a talk with Ari-chan( n_n She gave me permission to call her that) yesterday. She seems to have been much happier after I left. I can only hope that she can continue to be happy. Oh! She gave me the coolest souvenirs from London! I have a keychain shaped like those fuzzy, black hats that the guards wear and a pen that looks like a telephone booth. n__n I really like them, especially the keychain. So fuzzy n__n
Oh, I have to remember to get her a teddy bear. She liked using me as a pillow so much it reminded me of Suguru, I thought it would be nice for her to have something to cuddle with.
We also discovered that mint flavored tea and chocolate chip cookies tastes like crap horrible. e_e;
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Ari-chan messed up rather badly. I'm not one to... associate myself with people who use drugs. She made me a promise though, she said she wouldn't do it anymore. That makes me feel better.
I.. haven't seen Suguru yet. I haven't worked up the nerve to go to Tohma-san's house.
I'm so pathetic. |
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| This.. hasn't been the best week of my life. |
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| 12:02am 21/07/2005 |
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mood: gloomy music: Sayonara - Gackt
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Suguru.
Suguru messed up pretty badly. He slept with Yuuji after he just started dating Hiroshi. Now he keeps calling himself a slut and a bad person, but... he isn't.
He's just been so lonely lately. I've stayed with him, but apparently I'm not very good company. I blame myself, to a degree, for this happening. Maybe if I was a better friend, maybe if I was more interesting, he wouldn't have felt so alone. Then he wouldn't have done that with Yuuji, and he and Hiroshi could be happy.
I feel like I failed him.
Maybe that is part of why he hasn't come home.
I stayed out for quite a while looking for him the other night. I ended up searching around a rather bad shady part of town before he called me to tell me where he was. I would have went right over but, he's staying with his cousin. Tohma Seguchi. e__e; The walking, breathing reason for why I haven't written any NG related articles lately. Needless to say, I'm going to wait a little while before I try to go see Suguru. If he isn't back by tomorrow, I'm going to go over there to see him.
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e__e If I'm never seen again, I'd like to put a few things out in the open.
When I was eight years old, my mother made a strawberry pie for a function she was attending. I snuck it into my room and ate the whole thing, spoiling my dinner. When she asked me if I had seen it, I lied and told her I hadn't. I'm sorry, Mom.
When I was twelve years old, I was curious and experimented with my elder sister's make-up. I later blamed the mess on my five-year-old sister.
I accidentally broke my father's reading glasses and instead of informing him, I just set them back as they were and hoped that he wouldn't notice.
... I think that is it.
I wonder if this makes me a sacrificial virgin .-. |
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| Crazy week. |
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| 08:53pm 10/07/2005 |
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mood:  thoughtful music: Forever Memories - W-inds
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Wow. This week has been.. more than a little hectic. Suguru and his boyfriend broke up so I've sort of started to live over here with Suguru. I feel really bad because he is sad and I can't cheer him up very much. I took him with me when I went to my mom's house. e_e; Poor guy, my little sister nearly mauled him. If I remember correctly, I think they're supposed to get married. XD You better treat her right, Suguru. You wouldn't want me to have to act out my role as her older brother, would you? I hope my mom didn't pick at him too much. She thought he was adorable, but she kept trying to fatten him up. My mother's food is wonderful, but I think she tried a little too hard to get him to eat. e__e; I can't even eat that much.
Anyway, I think he had an ok time on his birthday at least. I got him a jungle cookie cake. It had different animal crackers on it and green icing. n__n It was a safari cake! He laughed at it a bit, but I know he liked it :P. I'm pretty sure he liked his presents. I gave him some blank sheet music paper. It has his name on it and everything! I even made the background for it myself n_n. It's a snowscape and it actually looks pretty! Oh! I also got him a very fat, stuffed animal penguin. I don't have a whole lot of money so I couldn't get him anything expensive. u__u Being poor isn't very fun.
Hmm, that is about all I have to say for tonight.
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Umm... Wow. Maiko-san came over on Suguru's birthday and... Suguru was a little drunk. He had all three of us play strip poker and... and.... @__@ If you see a girl's boobies breasts, does that make you less of a virgin?
~For Ari~
I have your pie! n__n I hope you like apple. |
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